...Butterfly Dreams...

2008-06-14T23:39:00.003+08:00

Napoleon Bonaparte to Josephine De Beauharnais
Paris, December 1795

I wake filled with thoughts of you.
Your portrait and the intoxicating evening which we spent yesterday have left my senses in turmoil.
Sweet incomparable Josephine, what a strange effect you have on my heart!
Are you angry?
Do I see you looking sad? Are you worried? ...
My soul aches with sorrow, and there can be no rest for your lover;
but is there still more in store for me when, yielding to the profound feelings which overwhelm me,
I draw from your lips, from your heart a love which consumes me with fire?
Ah! it was last night that I fully realized how false an image of you your portrait gives!
You are leaving at noon; I shall see you in three hours.
Until then, mio dolce amor, a thousand kisses; but give me none in return, for they set my blood on fire.
Bonaparte

13th june 08

2008-06-13T20:14:00.002+08:00

There's a special place in my heart that only U can touch,
A place where I can go and feel U near,
Throughout the day I think of U,
I can see ur smile, hear ur voice and in my thoughts U lovingly appear,
The way we LOVE each other makes it harder to be apart,
So when I can't hold U in my arms,
I'd hold U dearly in my heart.

I MISS YOU

Ps:I love you

2008-02-18T19:13:00.001+08:00

This song is just for my best friend who is also my partner

Love you till the end

I just want to see you
When you're all alone
I just want to catch you if i can
I just want to be there
When the morning light explodes
On your face it radiates
I can't escape
I love you 'till the end

I just want to tell you nothing
You don't want to hear
All i want is for you to say
Why don't you just take me
Where i've never been before
I know you want to hear me
Catch my breath
I love you 'till the end

I just want to be there
When we're caught in the rain
I just want to see you laugh not cry
I just want to feel you
When the night puts on its cloak
I'm lost for words don't tell me
All i can say
I love you 'till the end

2008-02-17T00:21:00.002+08:00

u scared the freak out of me.
do pay special attention to your health sweetheart.
are we taking turns to fall sick?
cheer up and get well soon.

PS: I LOVE YOU

2008-01-27T23:41:00.000+08:00

how relieved and glad my heart is now,
that 28th will be less than 24hours away.
It's been a pain to be sickly during the weekends,
without you there to comfort me.
I Miss You So.

2008-01-03T16:45:00.000+08:00

Welcome to the MAD RUSH.
where now is just the Beginning.

*breathes deeply in*

2008-01-01T01:46:00.000+08:00

reflecting back on 2007,
I'm just glad that I get to spend another year with her..
Alhamdullilah
It's been tough and sometimes I do feel like giving up when there's too much,
But I'm glad I didn't,
Cos I'm surrounded by my loved ones,
and Cos I have you.

Here's to 2008!
Happy New Year everyone.
Make 2008 an eventful and meaningful year,
You may never know what lies ahead of you.

My Love

2007-12-28T00:46:00.000+08:00

My Love,
You know you are my best friend,
You know that I'd do anything for you,
And my love,
Let nothing come between us.
My love for you is strong and true.

Love me without fear
Trust me without questioning
Need me without demanding
Want me without restrictions
Accept me without change
Desire me without inhibitions
For a love so free....
Will never fly away.

Berserah

2007-12-20T21:09:00.000+08:00

Biarlah ku relakan segala
Dalam hidupku sebuah tanda tanya
Mengapa...
Biarpun tak mampuku bertahan
Takkan pernah ku akui kalah

Tuhanku ku relakan segala
Takkan pernahku akui kalah
Percayaku yakin padanya
Dia yang menentukan semua
Berserah...

2007-12-14T19:14:00.000+08:00

how can things rewind and reverse in a split second?
I don't get it..

Missing U already ;(

2007-11-19T23:28:00.000+08:00

19th November 2007

A year has past us ever so briefly,
will always treasure the memories we have built together,
Thank you for still being the one who leads my hand whenever I'm lost,
the one who holds my heart.
Happy 1st year anniversary.

this song's for you:

betapa aku mencintaimu
dengan sepenuh hatiku
betapa aku menyayangimu
lebih dari yang kau tahu

inginku bahagiakan dirimu
setiap saat bersamaku
seperti janjiku kepadamu
takkan pernah ku ingkari

aku kan slalu ada di dekatmu
aku kan slalu menemani harimu
kau harus tau betapa aku
mencintaimu..

Keranamu

2007-11-04T19:14:00.000+08:00

Ketika kau ada disampingku
Hidupku pun terasa damai
Seperti yang telah terbayangkan dalam benakku
Saat hatiku ada di hatimu
Dunia pun menjadi indah
Karena hatimulah yang aku inginkan

Karena hadirmu ku bermakna
Jadikan hidupku seakan di nirwana
Di alam dunia

2007-10-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

It was said that LOVE is selfish,
and I did something selfish just now.
Something I truly regret.
Truly sorry.

2007-10-24T23:28:00.000+08:00

There's only one happiness in Life,
The honour to love and be loved in returned.
You gave me the honour to love you
and I'm blessed to have you,
loving me,
just the way I am.

You......Take me the way I am

2007-10-20T20:33:00.000+08:00

If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cuz I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cuz I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

2007-10-07T14:49:00.000+08:00

ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun
meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tau
ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku

yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
yang kucari s'lama ini dalam hidupku

2007-09-30T23:44:00.000+08:00

escalating stress
My dreadful Research Assignments
1. Assignment 1 due on 11th Oct
2. Assignment 2 due on 25th Oct

see how much I can look forward to HRY??

need my sweet escape.
need laughters to fill up my weary days,
sleepless and terrible dark eye rings invasion.

TIRED.PERIOD
wish I'd get another lecturer for the next module,
cos I'm totally brain squeezed by this one.

2007-09-21T01:53:00.000+08:00

You're the only piece of gold I own that flashes through my soul.

2007-09-16T16:30:00.000+08:00

my mind's exhausted,
cos U have been running in my mind endlessly.

2007-09-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

bummer,
sick on the weekend,
hurts when I talk,
I just want to sleep all day,
and I want to carry on fasting.

Salam Ramadhan to all.

Happy Birthday To him.

2007-09-11T23:46:00.000+08:00

glad things went smoothly,
felt fulfilling to see his grins & smiles.
To my birthday boy,
thank you for sharing this special day with me,
hope you enjoyed it.

For that someone

2007-09-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

degup jantung kian terbisik,
tanda cinta yag bersemi,
aku yang kan mencintaimu,
aku kan yang slalu mendampingimu,
bila bahagia yang akan kau tuju,
bila butuh cahaya tuk menemanimu,
Pilihlah aku.

2007-09-06T02:08:00.000+08:00

suprises?
I love Suprises.
giving or taking.
hmmmm anticipating the weekend.

*wishful smile*

the september suprise

2007-09-03T22:58:00.000+08:00

arrangements are made,
lips are sealed,
hopefully everything runs smoothly.
*amin*

PS: I love Surprises.

few more days and counting down.

2007-08-23T01:08:00.000+08:00

It'll be my first trip on the Duck Tours
&
up the DHL Helium Balloon
tommorow
and I can't sleep just thinking of it..

swing, swing

2007-08-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

oooh bring me again to that swing,
under the starry sky,
relive our childish kinks.
when my head gets heavy again,
let's relive it again.

yes, a swing ride did made my day :)
it was one of those days where I just wanted to relive my kiddy side.
the simplest joy,
too much influence of mixing with preschoolers,
We're gonna have an excursion next week!!!
Yipppeeeee

24

2007-08-12T17:02:00.000+08:00

as the clock strikes midnight and I turned 24,
along it bagged my maturity of a year,
and the social responsibilities that came with it,
it will be a tough battle ahead,
however, in hope that along the path it strengthen us,
as a better person,
one whom is not perfect,
but learns from mistakes,
one who can't give up,
for the better of their loved ones.

To age with grace.
*amin*

5 Factor Personality Test

2007-08-11T02:23:00.000+08:00

Something I did out of pure boredom.

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"

Conscientiousness:

You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.

Agreeableness:

You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.

Neuroticism:

You have high neuroticism.
It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.
You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.
You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Fix You

2007-08-06T11:47:00.000+08:00

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to Fix You.

*when all that happens, reach out for my hand,
and I'll guide your way,
when we're lost in that maze,
my persistence will motivates us going.*

2007-08-06T11:42:00.000+08:00

birthday blissed
well spent
accompanied with the ones I love
what more can I ask
now 24, I've to start planning for my Future
May ALLAH SWT makbulkan segala doa2 ku ini.
*amin*

I'd rather

2007-07-30T09:56:00.001+08:00

I'd rather have bad times with you,
than good times with someone else,
I'd rather be beside you in a storm,
than safe and warm by myself,
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart,
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart.

Love you dear.

May God answer our prayers.

2007-07-29T13:58:00.000+08:00

If you only knew how much U mean to me

2007-07-28T17:34:00.000+08:00

Remember all those sweet memories,
when times like this I miss u most,
the laughters and tears that we shared
the rainbow U painted on me when U held me close
I Miss You.

2007-07-27T01:37:00.000+08:00

the world was dark
power-tripped
am so confused
and my heart's bruised.

ohhh dengarlah bisikan ku ini

2007-07-22T18:03:00.000+08:00

Dengar bisikanku oh sayang
Coba lapangkan dada kita
Terima aku apa adanya
Jujur hati yang kita jaga

Genggam tanganku jangan bimbang
Tak usahlah lagi dikenang.

2007-07-14T21:06:00.000+08:00

*though I had to watch Transformers twice,
You know I won't mind as long it's with U,
and now I have your hand to hold on to again*

2007-06-29T01:13:00.000+08:00

If the wind could carry my words
as it passed through your direction
to whisper to you gently that
there's this someone
at the other end of the planet
who's thinking of you right now
If.

2007-06-27T00:22:00.001+08:00

currently experiencing
*the different facets of missing someone*
but honestly,
This is just the beginning.

Pssst: To that someone, be safe.

June Break

2007-06-22T23:25:00.000+08:00

enjoying every single second of my leave,
Alhamdullilah, the objectives for the leave are met,
DownTown East was GREAT :)
currently facing the post parting of my annual leave,
couple of unexpected events have happened,
was practically all over the place,
eyes are accessorised with dark rings,
insufficient rest,
Though I had my Fun, managed to complete the assignment and got several other things done.
looking forward to more happy events,
coming up towards the next half of the year,
7th July will be the first.

*The most important thing in Life
is to learn to give Love
& to let it come in*

Tioman LiveOnBoard - The ticket to sanity

2007-06-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

it was just me & the sea & the vessel,
the crashing of the waves,
Alhamdullilah, I'm safe and sound,
my screams of help could have been unheard,
and i could have been gone,
experience for AOW was an eye-opener,
visibility underwater wasn't that great,
only lovely sunsets,
star gazing,
wished you were there.

*simply missed the warmth in that hand*
*made me miss you even more*

Looking forward to DownTown East now

Ahoy..ahoy..sail we go

2007-06-15T09:21:00.000+08:00

ahoy, ahoy, sail we go
haversack's all packed
Let's dive in Tioman.
counting down till then

* you know my thoughts will always be with you.* :)

2007-05-26T15:48:00.001+08:00

Am looking forward for the month of June
&
the second half of 2007
I'll be back to school on Tuesday
Hopefully everything will falls in smoothly as planned :)

2007-05-20T23:19:00.000+08:00

I love the new haircut

yesterday

2007-05-20T13:25:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I saw the sun shining,
And the leaves were falling down softly,
My cold hands needed a warm, warm touch,
And I was thinking about you.

Fossil , fossil

2007-05-18T02:49:00.000+08:00

The current raves. Allie Clutch

US$38.00

Allie Multi
US$30.00

OR

Emmy Multi-Function

US $38

OR

Allie Multi
US$30

beauty in ugly

2007-05-15T22:04:00.000+08:00

I loved the song by Jason Mraz which is the soundtrack of UGLY BETTY sitcom.

she's so big hearted,
but not so remarkable
just an ordinary humble girl
expecting nothing as we're made to think
its a pretty person's world

but you are beautiful and you better go show it
go look again, you gotta be true to your own
if you really wanna go to the top
do you really wanna win?
don't believe in living normal, just to satisfy demand

well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart
you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly

well you are fresh, you're face is fabulous
don't forget you're one of a kind
when nobody is checking the deeds you've done
and nobody is hearing your cries
you make all of the fashion statements
just by dressing up your mind

*never fail to search for the beauty in ugly*
*everything happens for a reason*

2007-05-15T21:58:00.000+08:00

Thanks

for
bringing
me
Back
to
tranquility.

Ps: Only you can have that effect on me. :)

2007-04-24T22:21:00.000+08:00

I just wished the week will be over soon.

2007-04-22T21:52:00.000+08:00

blissed and beaming

CCF

2007-04-17T23:58:00.000+08:00

This was written by an acute Myeloid Leukaemia patient.
CCF (Children Cancer Foundation) is seeking the public help to collect funds for children with cancer. Children with cancer may still lead a normal childhood if given early treatment. Do your part.
Visit http://www.ccf.org.sg

A twist of fate was all it took,
Leukaemia was the diagnosis made..
so began the chemo drugs
and hospital stays,
6 months treatment...
or so they said.
But 6 months come,
and 6 months go,
The promised sunlight has yet to show.
High dependency,
Surgical and ICU,
Hospital wards I've all been to.
18 months later,
BMT's over,
It's back to school for me.
But what bad timing,
The O levels are near,
How will I do?
My dominant fear.
The 1st step's the hardest,
they always say,
Boy, were they right,
but I took it anyway,
Strived and preservered all the way
This is my story,
Every word is true.
A little message from me to you..
Pain and despair
are not here to stay,
Courage and faith
will guide your way.

ferris wheel

2007-04-15T23:04:00.000+08:00

A sneak peek to the 1st Ferris Wheel in Singapore..
Just 1 more year..
we're on that ferris wheel
weeeee

2007-04-08T20:16:00.000+08:00

aku tak mudah untuk mencintai
aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
aku tak mudah menyatakan aku jatuh cinta

senandungku hanya untuk cinta
tirakat ku hanya untuk dikau
tiada dusta, sumpah ku cinta
sampai ku menutup mata

2007-04-02T10:30:00.000+08:00

to cause any chaos
wasn't what I intended to
my heart aches to see that look
I'm sorry

2007-03-24T20:28:00.000+08:00

where exhaustion is at it's peak,
I need a break,
Real Soon.

keep holding on

2007-02-17T19:32:00.000+08:00

Dearest mum,
I love u
This song is for U..

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do

There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

In Life we just have to keep holding on,
through all the obstacles Life offers U,
there are things that we don't choose to happen,
but these are the incidents that leaves us pondering,
just how fragile a life is,
how lucky we may be but we didnt't realise it,
how a twist of event can change a person's perception 360 degrees,
Time is something I begun to treasure,
But if one day if the unexpected happen,
I hope I'll be able to brace myself for it..

missing the cherie babies

2007-01-23T22:57:00.000+08:00

i miss these babies,
ur big hugs,
ur laughters,
our jokes,
ur intensity to learn more,
our daily conversations.

till we meet again.

Cool Slideshows

2007-01-14T12:28:00.000+08:00

The remarkable thing in life is we determine our path..
We cannot change our memoir..
We cannot change the fact that people will construe us in a certain way.
We cannot avoid the inevitable.
The only thing we can do is hold on to the one string we have,
and that is perseverance.

*Without inner peace, it is impossible to have world peace...Dalai Lama *

the end of 2006

2006-12-31T22:36:00.000+08:00

2006
I'll put it all behind me.
I've forgiven those who hurt me or made me shed a tear.
I embrace those who stood by me thru all odds.
Those preciousness that I cling tightly to.
Letting go gives me a complete relief rather than bottling it all up.

Here's to a Gregarious & a Bright New Year of 2007.
Let's begin the new year with lots of smiles, laughters, love and joy.

2006-12-25T19:41:00.000+08:00

" As time is short, live Life to the fullest.
Never stop & regret of what might have been or should have been,
Embrace the shortcomings knowing there'll be greener pastures,
Learn to replace hate with love,
Anger to patience.
Never unto to others,
what u don not wish other to unto to U."

2oo7 is just days away,
a beginning of a new working environment,
a new year filled with with different responsibilities,
priorities & resolutions has been set,
just have to work harder towards it.
10 days to the driving Test.

Comes what may in 2007, I'll learn to take it in my stride.
Insyaallah.
*Smoga ALLAH SWT berkati doa terpendam ku ini"
*amin*

CONGRATS: Fara & Faidzal

well wishes & prayers from me.

Gratitude

2006-12-20T20:17:00.000+08:00

Me & Renae during the Graduation Ceremony @ DBS Building

CONGRATS to newly-weds: Yani & Akel

It has been a whirlwind of events for me,
Issues that needs to be handled.
Sometimes, I get real drained out,
Worried sick,
Just hoping for a tiny weeny Miracle.

Despite all the challenges I'm facing,
Alhamdullilah,
I got a new job when I nearly gave up finding one,
My prospects & benefits are gonna be better here.Insyaallah.
Slowly each issue is finally getting it's solution.

Insyaallah for 2007,
I would have to work smarter & do my best,
Earn more to tide over my mom's medical bills for 2007.
It hasn't been an easy phase but Alhamdullilah our path has been gradually lightened.
and I thank ALLAH SWT for anwering our prayers.

Circuit Driving

2006-12-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

Driving in the circuit was a big prick,
The only thing I was good in was parking,
Be it parallel, reverse or directional change.
The rest I sucked big time esp slopes.
My Driving test is just weeks away.

A lot of events have been happening recently,
too much to mention,
till my ears automatically deafened itself,
the line of fatigue gets thicker by the day,
straying & about to break apart anytime.

Worries constantly circling my mind,
responsibilities weighing heavy on my shoulder,
yet circumstances makes it harder.

my little mystery

2006-12-07T19:48:00.000+08:00

When I'm alone, I dream
Of a place inside of me
A place far away from the world we know
Unto a place that my eyes behold

An insidious creation
Full of mystical persuasion
Past the heights of Imagination
Unto a world of self-perpetuation

Where fairy tales come true
And the skies are no longer blue
When true love is always shown
And your flaws are never known
Where plastic fades
And real smiles take their place
When tears never fall
Because all of a sudden I don't feel so small

An insidious creation
Full of mystical persuasion
Past the heights of Imagination
Unto a world of self-perpetuation

I no longer feel lonely and empty inside
Because I know me and this world will collide
This place so wild and free
Only for the creatures and me
Leaves my heart so pure and forever piece
Because all the pressure has been released
Until I reach back into reality
That's when I finally see
Me and this world will only be
Along in my soul, my little mystery

Chasing Cars

2006-12-06T07:46:00.000+08:00

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

2006-11-21T14:23:00.000+08:00

a sweet surrender

"with good intent, all will be well"

2006-11-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

It hurts real bad,

when u see someone U Love,

And care for,

Suffers in silence.

Standing aloof,

despite her sorrowful eyes,

Smiles and act as if it wasn't really there,

Non affecting.

2006-10-12T23:18:00.000+08:00

If a fairy whispered in my ear,
for my golden wish,
I used to have a long list by my side,
long awaited for this moment,
but now times have changed,
all i wish for is my silent prayer to God be granted.

A simple but a Happy Raya will be more than contentment for me now,
cos time is short,
moments lost will be left with pangs of regrets,
if only people understood.

15th September 2006

2006-09-20T13:47:00.000+08:00

Solitude was my saviour,

But ugly birds who flew by my bedside,

chirping incesstantly tarnished it all,

To feel me, to judge me,

Was what what we Humans are just capable of?

Empathy, compassion?

But greed and self-fishness overcomes you,

Struggling like a drunkard to walk on a straight line,

Your filthy hands shoving and pushing,

Till I fell in a gallow.

2006-09-08T21:02:00.000+08:00

19 hours to go
I'm off to Chiangmai/Chiangrai
alone.

:)

Lost in Transition

2006-09-08T09:34:00.000+08:00

Poignance and agony were my best friend yesterday,
Strapped to the seat & motionless,
Dejavu was what it was,
How I wish fairytales exists,
How I wish we can turn back time,
How i wish I was a Doctor with healing hands,
So i could it make it all be Wrong or just a scary nightmare.

I wish.
But that was not what God planned for me or us,
Everything He takes away from us,
He will replace with something way better,
Every obstacle He gives us,
There's a silver lining behind the dark clouds,
Cos he is fair.

every laughter,
there's tears,
every success,
there's failures,
every joy,
there's pain,
every struggle,
there's triumph.

As I sat at the chair,
Heart heaving hard,
Hopes dashed,
I clinged tightly to my faith,
Cos that's my only Hope.

Is this a winter suicide?

2006-09-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

Is this a winter suicide?
Sharp blizzards stungs my skin,
Like alcohol being splashed on a deep fresh wound,
I grit my teeth so hard till my lips bled to withstand the pain,
Till I felt numb and lifeless.

Cold, weary,
Oblivion of which direction to go,
Should I be heading to the right or to the left?
Torrents of snow clouds obscures my path.

As my teeth's chatter a silly tune,
And my skin turns blue,
I wonder,
Will I get through this haphazard?

A belated Teacher's DAy shout- out

2006-09-04T21:35:00.000+08:00

Dedicated to all Teachers

T is for the lessons U taught me
E is for the acts of endearment U do just to guide me when I'm lost
A signifies the actions U'd take to get me back on the passing marks
C is the care & concern U show me even how I never fail to make u irritated
H is the happiness U have shared with me
E is for the exuberance and excitement to make our learning interesting
R is for being the reason I never gave up on learning.

A happy Belated Teacher's Day to all..

For teaching children lessons,
to help them as they grow,
Let this poem remind U,
U're all the BEST teachers I know.

The Joakim Sent-Off

2006-09-02T17:12:00.000+08:00

I happened to have a glimpse of the results for the Singapore IDOL 2 this week..
My oh my..
I agreed with what Ken said, U need "substance" to be a Singer
No pun intended, but this Idol mania is becoming a fanclub manifestation rather than to unearth the "talent" in Singapore..It's all about who has the more votes or has a bigger fanclub!
Mathilda would have shone out among the rest if she was given a chance to still be present during the R&B and Soul categry.
That's my 2 cents thoughts
then again look at all those teenage gals crying cos their Idol was booted out..
they cried as if they lost a family,
as if the world has end?
*gals, I know it's hard 2 accept ur Idol being out of the competition But there are simply worser things that's been happening around u, around the globe that u should spare a thought or at least give a worthy tear about!

Check this video out: the recent issue about Lebanon & Israel >> by George Galloway

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Wdwk1dp-uU

a beautiful disaster?

2006-08-30T22:54:00.000+08:00

Sesungguhnya hidup ini penuh dengan ujian dan cubaan,
Jika ia tidak diuji mahupun dicuba,
Maka kita tidak akan sedar keasliannya,
Aku redha dan berserah.

2006-08-29T00:28:00.000+08:00

Feelings of both to behave rationally or emotionally
Partaking my fear & to stand strong
Lies right beneath me this very minute
To shed tears
A zillion tears will never be able to alter it
But why do I still do so?
Vulnerability?
Where has all the zest & strength gone?
To brush it all off
And walk with my head high in the air
Ready for this cold world,
Where judgements are passed in a snap of fingers
Soon it'll be time to have a whiff of pungency
Cos Life was never "a bed of roses"
And so they claimed
Life can be unforgiving
Time can be forgetful
We can't have it all always
So we must be able to LEARN to adapt to Life's challenges
To ride the rollercoaster
For the sake of the dearest ones
Taking in stride to inhale & embrace the stale odour
Even if I were to need to choke on it
I will survive it aLL
Insyaallah
For her
For him
For them
and Me.
Till then,
I'll recollect all the strength there is in me.

2006-08-27T11:31:00.000+08:00

Someday I'll wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind
Behind
Where trouble melts like lemondrops
High above the chimney tops
That's where U'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow

2006-08-26T14:33:00.000+08:00

a DisturBing Revelation

Be Strong my heart.

Only God knows how I'm feeling now!

the alternative

2006-08-24T23:48:00.000+08:00

the alternative,
just less than 3 weeks away,
away from the hustles & bustles,
back to the nature,
Insyaallah,
It will be definitely be an insight for me..
Everything will be Okay!

Foiled

2006-08-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

forget about the map readings,
the anticipation,
let's just forget about it.
foiled plans,
that's what they are now.
it happened not once,
but twice this year.
so i'll just have to pack my bags,
and seek my own solace.
cos I'm in Need,
need of my silence & tranquility,
the buzz & excitement.
not here,
but out of here.
*period*

Contentment

2006-08-20T19:52:00.000+08:00

Little I ask; my wants are few;
I only wish a hut of stone,
(A very plain brown stone will do,)
That I may call my own;
And close at hand is such a one,
In yonder street that fronts the sun.

Plain food is quite enough for me;
Three courses are as good as ten;
If Nature can subsist on three,
Thank Heaven for three. Amen!
I always thought cold victual nice;
My choice would be vanilla-ice.

I care not much for gold or land;
Give me a mortgage here and there,
Some good bank-stock, some note of hand,
Or trifling railroad share,
I only ask that Fortune send
A little more than I shall spend.

Honors are silly toys, I know,
And titles are but empty names;
I would, perhaps, be Plenipo,
But only near St. James;
I'm very sure I should not care
To fill our Gubernator's chair.

Jewels are baubles; 't is a sin
To care for such unfruitful things;
One good-sized diamond in a pin,
Some, not so large, in rings,
A ruby, and a pearl, or so,
Will do for me; - I laugh at show.

My dame should dress in cheap attire;
(Good, heavy silks are never dear;)
I own perhaps I might desire
Some shawls of true Cashmere,
Some marrowy crapes of China silk,
Like wrinkled skins on scalded milk.

I would not have the horse I drive
So fast that folks must stop and stare;
An easy gait - two forty-five
Suits me; I do not care;
Perhaps, for just a single spurt,
Some seconds less would do no hurt.

Of pictures, I should like to own
Titians and Raphaels three or four,
I love so much their style and tone,
One Turner, and no more,
(A landscape, - foreground golden dirt,
The sunshine painted with a squirt.)

Of books but few, - some fifty score
For daily use, and bound for wear;
The rest upon an upper floor;
Some little luxury there
Of red morocco's gilded gleam
And vellum rich as country cream.

Busts, cameos, gems, such things as these,
Which others often show for pride,
I value for their power to please,
And selfish churls deride;
One Stradivarius, I confess,
Two Meerschaums, I would fain possess.

Wealth's wasteful tricks I will not learn,
Nor ape the glittering upstart fool;
Shall not carved tables serve my turn,
But all must be of buhl?
Give grasping pomp its double share,
I ask but one recumbent chair.

Thus humble let me live and die,
Nor long for Midas' golden touch;
If Heaven more generous gifts deny,
I shall not miss them much,
Too grateful for the blessing lent
Of simple tastes and mind content!

Fireworks by Esplanade

2006-08-15T18:21:00.000+08:00

Finale of the Fireworks Festival
by the Esplanade

It was a beautiful 15mins of fireworks..
Despite the long wait,
despite my camera batteries went kaput on me,
despite the encounter with ugly Singaporeans,
despite witnessing people trying to have a mass suicide,
despite it all,It was Fun!

my new hairdo

2006-08-15T18:19:00.000+08:00

Thanks to my birthday month..
I received an sms saying that during month of Aug, there'd be 50% disc of all hair services...
So here's my new hair-do..

a belated entry

2006-08-15T16:56:00.000+08:00

Alhmdullilah, I turned 23 happily.
It was fun & full of unexpected suprises..
From the picturesque evening, celebration at work, dinner at Samar, Seafood Suprise by Dad..
what more can I ask?

*hugs*
Thanks everyone for making my birthday a memorable one..

Fara's nikah

2006-08-13T10:12:00.000+08:00

6th August 2006
2.30pm
The Akad Nikah

Congratulations to the both of u..
Happy belated 6th year anniversary
Semoga ikatan ini kekal abadi..
*amin*
PS: Only GOD knows how much the two of u means to me.
Hope u'll like the pictures I took for U..

Picturesque suprise

2006-08-04T00:18:00.000+08:00

A sweet advanced birthday suprise...

that view

where we sat

after dozens of unsuccessful attempts.. :)

I hate mosquitoes!!

2006-07-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

Damn u mozzies, didnt I spray enough insect repellant??
I know I'm in due for my blood donations to the BloodBank..
I decided that mosquitoes will now be my sworn enemy..
Now I'm not happy when it rains, cos these bloodsuckers be out to bite me..
Should I lessen my sugar intake or something?
I don't exactly have this problem till recently
Once bitten,it swells to a prominent red bruise..
Get over my sweet blood, U bloodsuckers...
I hate you, get out of my Life!!!

off for a short course..

2006-07-20T20:29:00.001+08:00

6 Fridays from tommorow will be occupied..
Back to school for the Speech & Drama course..
Of all the days, why must they rob me of my Fridays?
7-10pm pulak tu...
need to re-charge my sleepy brain cells alright...
It'll be the Racial Harmony celebration tommorow..
will be busy cooking with the kids the asian delights..

PS: My brains will start splitting only when I & the other recreational club members have to start squeezing our brains off to plan for the Company's Dinner & Dance + Beauty Pageant..Yeaa U heard it right, there will be a beauty pageant not for bimbos but teachers..Guess what, event's in October, we have yet to have the skeleton done or venue booked cos the higher management dropped the bombshell only recently..The Dinner & Dance was supposedly a co-chairing with the Higher management side & now we're on our own...till they feel like chipping in.. * shruggs*
But I have something to look forward to..
* grins widely*

The Lakehouse

2006-07-19T21:25:00.000+08:00

My next movie other than Tokyo Drift that i wanna watch..

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?]

PS: Shall I go Tioman on the 11th-13th aug? hone my diving skills..

Pirates of Carribean - Dead's man Chest

2006-07-19T21:08:00.000+08:00

I prefer the Curse of black pearl...Ending sucked cos it's hanging in the air
But Jack Sparrow was still silly but with a motive now..heh

My long absence on the road

2006-07-15T15:24:00.000+08:00

Cilaka U...
where's your 9 o'clock and 3 o'clock..
Eyes on the road, check blindspots..
That's good, pandai pun...
yes, like that...
:P

After a year absence sitting on the driver's seat, for my driving practicals..
Sitting upstraight near to the steering wheel,
Eyes trying hard to be alert & not blink too much..
Looking at the rear and side view mirrors other than the road..
Re-runs of going forward and backwards,
Turning right,
Turning left,
Change to gear 1,2,3,4
A change of driving instructor who enjoys saying "Cilaka U"
Took me a while to lean back and chill..
90mins were very detailed,
Went through the basics again & a lil of the theory areas..
Taught me how to visualise ahead etc..
He made me real concious on the position of my hands each time when I'm making a turn
Something I used to not be concious about..
Gotta just practise feeling the "Biting point" and accelerate smoothly..
So my 1st TP attempt will be on 5th January 2007..
i'll have less than 6 months to polish up till the date..
Till then, i'll keep my plans under wraps..

PS: Looking forward to my movie date later, to catch my silly pirate Jack Sparrow..
He just oozes HOTNESS... ;p

France Vs Italy

2006-07-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

the finale of World Cup 2006 is finally here,
France vs Italy..
My heart's out to the Hot Italians, cos they had played well this season..
But it's gonna be a gruelling match as France is another exceptional team..
So may the best team wins..

Ps: at least, all the Sporeans whom have won or lost their cash on betting finally can start to tally their debits or credits in their bank account..

With that,
:* a flying kiss for the Italy..

2006-06-15T20:11:00.000+08:00

It sucks that the World Cup is not aired on Channel 5 this season,
Not a SCV subscriber meant that I missed out so much matches..
To make up for my long boring week, decided to head down Lakepoint for a soccer sleepover..
We munched & ate even before the game started & had our power nap before the 3am match starts, which was Germany vs Poland..
The Germans were slackish the first half while the Polish were agressive on their defense..
a boring match I must say..
Should have came earlier to catch Spain vs Ukraine ..
Barely slept for an hour & half, my alarm's been ringing over & over but i just left it to a snooze..
But I had this dream that not only jolted me out of bed but also left a big grin on my face..
It's my secret now! ;p

Phew...Alhamdullilah

2006-06-13T20:07:00.000+08:00

Syukurlah, finally THAT day arrived..
The ordeal has reached it's Closure..
The pain,
The misunderstandings,
The heavy load that's weighing me down,
Numb feet to walk,
Heavy hands pulling on my wallet,
It's the END of that road....

The air is fresher now,
inhaling contentedly as I sip my cup of milk...
PHEW..

Listening to: Somebody's watching over me-Hillary duff

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
Took this moment to my dreams..

Manta Rays

2006-06-03T23:44:00.000+08:00

During my visit to the dive centre last night,
was being introduced to dive profressionals from the neighbouring dive centre..
So i happen to chance upon the video footage Bali underwater life..
I have yet to be able to come across the above graceful sea creature called the Manta Ray so far...
Most of other divers had at least a quick glimpse of them not me the unfortunate one..
Only during the footage, i was in awe in their movements in the sea...
And manta rays are closely related to the shark family..Ironically I just found out..
It will be the Manta & Mola Season in Bali from July to October..
Fingers are twitching, wonder whether I'm ready to dive in waters besides those in Malaysia..

2006-05-29T21:02:00.000+08:00

time has passed me by as a bolt of lightning..
browsed through some pictures of someone that's familiar to my heart.
realised how much time has struck between us and how less i know of each's life..
as much as it saddens me to let go, there was relevance in the words she said that day..
as a friend, I'm happy to see her glowing with joy..

But I miss her.

Earthquake in Yogyakarta

2006-05-28T20:16:00.000+08:00

Al- Fatehah
I would like to convey my condolences to the families of the victims of the earthquake in Yogyakarta.

According to Yahoo News, Officials said the death toll stood at 4,285, with 2,615 people killed in Yogyakarta province and 725 lives lost in the Klaten district of neighbouring Central Java province. The 6.3-magnitude earthquake was Indonesia's third major disaster in 18 months, following the 2004 Asian tsunami catastrophe which killed 168,000 in Sumatra and another quake that killed more than 600 people in Nias in March last year. Meanwhile teams from the Singapore Armed Forces (SAF) and the Singapore Civil Defence Force (SCDF) have arrived in Indonesia to start relief work.

Ps: As some of the brave officials sent for the relief work are my friends, I pray for their safety during this mission..

2006-05-25T22:55:00.000+08:00

Been a busy early this month with the 2 events we had at my centre..
Alhamdullilah, I have recovered from the dry cough i have had since the past week..
June will be another busy period for me,
with the upcoming PTC,
my recreational event I'm planning for..the "debut"
and the last month for me to step my feet at a place where I dread,
meeting this "fake" personnel to pass what i have to pass...
The dreaded months which I try to stand tall through will soon come to an end..
And Hooorayyyness after that...
Syukur for God who gave me that strength to overcome it..

PS: To a certain individual, I'm not sure what I may have offend you, if I did, I apologise for it..
But I am definitely not an OBJECT for ridicule..Honestly, I have treasured the friendship but i think u went a tad too far, the least be discreet...Thanks for everything..

listening to: Unfaithful by Rihanna

* what goes around comes around*
listen to the song..
never cheat if you don't wish to be cheated on in future..
Cos God is always fair

2006-05-13T18:20:00.000+08:00

having the after effects of the trial class of Yogalates @ True Yoga yesterday...
heavily designed for the abdominal muscles...
I like the ambience in Samar Cafe..
then managed to catch Poseidon..

My darling nephew & niece were here today, but their Auntie was tooo tired & managed to play with them for less than an hour before she fell asleep in the couch in the hall.. :(
Sorry Loves, will make it up to u ...

Equinox

2006-05-10T20:42:00.000+08:00

Equinox The Restaurant, Swiss�tel The Stamford, Singapore

Equinox Complex

Levels 1, 69, 70, 71, 72
Swissot�l The Stamford
2 Stamford Road
Singapore 178882.

A place worth visiting, sky dining with a peek of the exclusive view of Singapore and the neighbouring islands..
Big pain in the pocket though...
The next time I'm there, will never forget to bring my camera..

2006-05-08T21:07:00.000+08:00

After a week of denial that I'm back home in Singapore cos I was having my Fun in Perhentian..
finally my hoard of work settled back in, back to my unbelieveablely 19 smart ass 3 year olds who manages to make me laugh in bettween wits of anger by their antics..
During the weekend, managed to catch Mission Impossible 3 with a dear kakak..
then Sat, had a birthday lunch with the family & bro in law (to be) cos it was his Bdy..
hope he loved it!! Welcome to our family bday celebrations yeahh..
Then was the unexpected meeting which we had Nasi Ayam Penyet @ Lucky Plaza..since it was recommended by my gf so i recce it out..then catch Daisy (a korean blockbuster) and we had the Gelato ice cream..damn yummy...I realised Indochine has a fine liveband, as I watched in awe..

Today, I was welcomed to the centre with 4 wailing boys that almost deafened my ears..
Atrociously 1 most of the most horrible crying event in my entire 4 years of teaching experience..
All 4 expecting my attention and wailed in my ears..1 tantrum, 1 crying for the mother etc..
*need my moment of silence now*

Perhentian Dive Pix

2006-05-03T23:29:00.000+08:00

After donkey years never took the KTM...
Embarked @ 7pm to Trengganu..
Reached there about 9am...
Long train ride but we walked around to the pantry to snack & I slept half the time on the way..
So I was the one wide awake in the wee hours, played Scrabble etc...

me posing with the KTM

Looking out the window to see

this.....

Kuala Besut Jetty, awaiting for our boat..

A smiley 4 month old baby who's not scared of boat rides...

The view from the back of the boat..

Different hues of blue..Pulau Perhentian Besar

Gears all ready for the dives...

Me n my buddy for that trip..

Clownfish & their sea anemones

The shy bamboo shark hiding beneath the rocks..

Forgot what's his name was..Scorpionfish or what?

Beautiful Sunset @ Perhentian Besar

Thanks for joining me for this trip dear...Us staring at the sunset...

The locals demonstrating their expertise in playing with fire...

Im 2/ 3 shades darker now..Say goodbye to the island! ;(
If only I could be stranded there & just lead the simplest life...

The group that made this trip A hell of FUN!!!

Alhamdullilah I have finally received my diving license, more upcoming
dive trips to come..Insyaallah...Lots of laughters, funny incidents
happened, serious issues as well, althou at times the visibility
underwater wasnt that great but the experience was worth it..Managed to
be more calm underwater & enjoy the underwater scene..at times
wandering off all by myself..Insyaallah kalau ada rezeki lebih, i'll
start to invest in my diving equptments bit by bit...esp resourcing for
underwater camera...then pursue my Advanced Open Water Course, where I
will get to do night diving, wreck diving, photography skills etc..Insyaallah..

Till my next dive/ holiday, month of May will be a busy period for me at work with the upcoming OpenHouse etc...
Have a new Japanese boy named Takeru in my class, he speaks only in his native language..
He told his mom that he loves the school & friends but he doesnt understand what I'm talking about...
Starting to read my Japanese manual that I haven't been touching since the pool incident...

Sayonara..

Mata oaishimasho..