Internet Connection down the past week so that explains my MIA...
Will update once it's been re-connected...
Tis post is courtesy frm my ex- collegue's pc.....
Till then I shall go 4 my night swim......
will b bck soonn....
posted @ 9:14 PM
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August 20, 2005
I went for a Dyslexia Talk on How to improve a child's writing skills at Spring Spore...
That was part of my assignment where I was to evaluate and write a detailed report on the workshop For my Practical Experiences assignment...Which has 2 parts in it..This is taking up 50% of my grades...hmmmm
DO u know Tom Cruise, Whoopi Goldberg, Albert Einstein is Dyslexic??
But all of the above are successful people..
K i shall start on my report now..
2 reports to be handed up by end of the mth...
Am waitg for the Teacher's Day celebration n the centre is closed on the 1st Sept...HOORayyy
posted @ 2:00 PM
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August 19, 2005
Well, my dive trip was fun and interesting..it was also definitely an eye opener.....lived life back to the basics, and as I lay down by the beach 1 day to tan all by myself..Suddenly I remininsced the past events in my life....
I've realised how pampered I was with the luxuries of life, how sheltered I was in my life despite me having thoughts that I was an independent individual, it made me consider not only to do some soul searching but to validate what I truly want in my life, what have I achieved in life, and the contents of my personal life....
How i may have have hurt others 4 my bluntness when all I wanted was to save them from going thru Hurt,
How I may seem insensitive n oblivious 2 other's feelings even when they might b sincere of their feelings, which is actually sparing them frm another heartbreak,
How my personality has gradually changed over time,
How I was building high walls with metal gates and pricks n thorns around me where even a brush thru it will prick a heart,
How I have slammed the doors and locked up my heart,
How little people do ever know or understood me, the saddest part of all cos Since it's acclaimed that u do even after all these years....
How much care n concern and warmth of love I have received from the people around me, be it my family, close friends or friends....I luv u guyss sooo muchZZ
How scared i am just to let my guard down even for a second,
How Im 2 comfy in my own comfort zone...
With the past experiences in my Life, the bending and steep roads of my path,
People with whom I met or get acquainted with in the past years,
Taught me much in Life..
Not only does that make me emotionally stronger but Sumhow made me who I am now
Along the way in any part of my journey in Life, If I were 2 hurt anyone or their feelings..I am sorry...If I do stumble, please do not worry...I will definitely pick myself up...
Despite all those pain & hurt,I too have realised how Lucky of a person I was despite my shortcomings..
Well, U can say my trip was a self- reflecting one....
It's been a long time since I had that much laughter..
So I'm thankful to GOD for the space he gave me to experience Life..
Life is a rollercoaster, with the thrills, risks, mixed feelingsss, challenges, responsiblities.....
But I am grateful to have the chance to live it despite it all
Ps: Pics of the trip will be posted once I get my hands on it ok?
posted @ 9:28 AM
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Because of U - Kelly Clarkson
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
posted @ 9:25 AM
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August 12, 2005
Tonight i shall embark to Pulau Aur..for my Open WAter DIves...
There will all together be 5 dives....which 3 dives will be
compulsory..from there they will access how comfortable u r underwateretc..u will be asked to carry out certain skills u hv learnt during the confined water in ur pool sessions..then will they certify u as a OPEN WATER DIVER.. Which is also ur diving license that certifies u 2 dive in any dive sites...hmmmm
Departure @ 8pm from the Scubashot office...
B reaching Kota Tinggi for a stop at around midnitee..
Then to take the 4hours boat ride to the Island itself...
Probably would reach there by 5am in the morning...
Check in at Atlantis Bay & zzZZzzzz
9.30am like that will be my 1st dive...
thats what i can remember of the itinery...
Where is Pulau Aur?
The island itself...PULAU AUR (12-8-05-14-8-05)
I am aware of the
danger pertaining to this sport...I guess everything in LIFE has a risk 2 it...I admit despite how I can't wait for this weekend to arrive, I am worried too n a lil scared..Of how I will fare in the deep sea which is way different from those pool sessions where my feet can touch the floor...ahahkzz..
*PRAY to GOD for a safe n sound journey*
Till then I shall go pack my bags...Shall update when Im back yeahh...
posted @ 11:54 AM
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August 10, 2005
HEpi 40th BirthdaY Spore!!!!
It was the biggeSt celebration since Independence frm Malaysia in 1965.
From the historic Padang & Sunny Marina South to the Heartlands of Tampines, Yishun & Jurong East...
Here r some of the pics I managed to take of the fireworks at the Celebration @ Jurong East...
My fav part of the event: Fireworks of course!!!!
PS: Hv a luvLy week ppl...
posted @ 10:58 AM
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August 7, 2005
An unplanned movie outing with the siblings...
To watch Charlie N The CHocolate Factory..
Moments spent r irreplaceable.
Luv U, sisters and lil bro....
*muackss*
posted @ 11:05 AM
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August 5, 2005
TENTANG DIA...(Indonesian movie)
Sebuah filem karya Rudi Scedjarwo
dari cerpen karya Melly Goeslow..
*Combined with a superb soundtrack*
tentang cinta,
tentang harapan...
Depicted frm TENTANG DIA
Ada yang hilang
Ketika kau hilang
Hatiku
Jiwaku
Ada yang pergi
Ketika kau pergi
Senyumku
Tawaku
Hidupku ikut hilang bersamamu
Cintaku ikut pergi bersamamu
Sementara aku masih disini
Mencuba tegak berdiri
Tanpamu
But definitely uncompared to this poem...from ADA APA DENGAN CINTA
~ my all time fav~
Kulari ke hutan kemudian teriakku
Kulari ke pantai kemudian menyanyiku
Sepi.. sepi.. dan sendiri aku benci
Aku mau bingar.. aku mau di pasar
Bosan aku dengan penat
Dan enyah saja kau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika kusendiri
...Pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai...
Biar mengaduh sampai gaduh..
Aih.. ada malaikat menyulam
Jarring laba laba belang di tembok
Keraton putih
Kenapa tak goyangkan saja..
Loncengnya..
Biar terdera
Atau aku harus lari ke pantai
Belok ke hutan?
Any interpretations on that??
Have time or extra cash..?
Go buy the vcd :P
posted @ 9:19 PM
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AND so I turn 22 today, this will be the start of my long leave...
but duh i gotta wrk till 2pm tmw, nobody want 2 change sat shift with me..
I will commence wrk only on the 15th aug..wishfully thinking i could
take the time off frm wrk n sch, assignments deadlines keep piling up,all due end of the mth..gosh so now i'd have 2 juggle and manage my time wisely...
In conjunction with the Nation's bdy next week, we had a party in class today...
Organised by me with the help of my dear 2 partner teachers..
With them, it was all a SUCCESS..Big thank U for the bdy cake..N 4
making it all turn out smoothly...We started the day with a nature walk around the park, visit to the grocery shop, garden,coffeshop...rounding the area..So this is the best time to test their knowledge, on what they have learnt...
then it's the PARTY!!! FOOd, some prepared by me n my parner teacher, contributed by parents etc etc...
my n1 class
me trying to keep the flame alive..they blew it out 4 me 4 times..
heehee look at those expressions...
Panas terik sekali hari ini.. aft half day at wrk,Spend presonal
quality time 2 myself, head down to Rupinis at Little India to do
eyebrow threading and then to HSA to donate blood..
I hope my blood could help ease sum1's pain and save a life...
At 22, I feel that's much more that I have yet to achieve in my life..But I will patiently stive and work hard 4 it....
Thou my week has been moody and blue this wk for an unknown reason
myself, brooding over nothing and unproductive at all, cant seem to or wish to do anything, even postponed my 2nd dive pool session..Is this my holiday mood that has been re-activated without me knowing?? Or have I simply switched off from everything at this moment of time??Wrk,sch,my life? hmmmm
At the strike of 12 ystdy, it all mellows a lil by lil...
Sweet sms frm long lost frens,cuzins,family, long distance kol from my frens in kl,unexpected sms frm ppl whom id nvr guessed remembered my bdy...awwwww
THanks U ALL..U made my day a Joyous one n full of smiless....
I feel thankful and grateful to ur doas 4 me..
*Dengan ini, aku bersyukur akan segalanya dan Terima kasih YA ALLAH keatas segalanya yang hadir dalam hidupku, walaupun bagaimana baiknya atau keburukkannya..IA telah menjadikan aku manusia yang lebih tabah menjejahi hidup* ~Syukur Alhamdulillah~
Now I have 2 wait for my family to be back??
wonder where are they, all my siblings dissapeared frm petang till now..
:) HUgsss 2 all...
posted @ 8:53 PM
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August 3, 2005
Walt Whitman (1819–1892)
from Song of Myself
I celebrate myself, and sing myself,
And what I assume you shall assume,
For every atom belonging to me as good belongs to you.
I loaf and invite my soul,
I lean and loafe at my ease observing a spear of summer grass.
My tongue, every atom of my blood, form'd from this soil, this air,
Born here of parents born here from parents the same, and their parents
the same,
I, now twenty two years old in perfect health begin,
Hoping to cease not till death.
Creeds and school in abeyance,
Retiring back a while sufficed at what they are, but never forgotten,
I harbor for good or bad, I permit to speak at every hazard,
Nature without check with original energy.
Houses and rooms are full of perfumes, the shelves are crowded with
perfumes,
I breathe the fragrance myself, and know it and like it,
The distillation would intoxicate me also, but I shall not let it.
The atmosphere is not a perfume, it has no taste of the distillation, it is
odorless,
It is for my mouth forever, I am in love with it,
I will go to the bank by the wood and become undisguised and naked,
I am mad for it to be in contact with me.
The smoke of my own breath,
Echoes, ripples, and buzz'd whispers, love-root, silk-thread, crotch and vine,
My respiration and inspiration, the beating of my heart, the passing of blood
and air through my lungs,
The sniff of green leaves and dry leaves, and of the shore and dark-color'd
sea-rocks, and of hay in the barn,
The sound of the belch'd words of my voice, words loos'd to the eddies of the wind,
A few light kisses, a few embraces, a reaching around of arms,
The play of shine and shade on the trees as the supple boughs wag,
The delight alone or in the rush of the streets, or along the fields and hill-sides,
The feeling of health, the full-noon trill, the song of me rising from bed and
meeting the sun.
Have you reckon'd a thousand acres much? Have you reckon'd the earth much?
Have you practiced so long to learn to read?
Have you felt so proud to get at the meaning of poems?
Stop this day and night with me and you shall possess the origin of all poems,
You shall possess the good of the earth and sun, (there are millions of suns
left,)
You shall no longer take things at second or third hand, nor look through
the eyes of the dead, nor feed on the spectres in books,
You shall not look through my eyes either, nor take things from me,
You shall listen to all sides and filter them from yourself.
posted @ 9:17 PM
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August 2, 2005
Till this date, I have 3 more assignments more due:
Understanding& Presenting Physical Environment: 16th aug ( Group Work)
>Evaluation Journal + Photo Display of the new classroom environment my grp memebers created.
Practical Experiences: 29th Aug (Individual)
> A visit to any site that wld b beneficial to a child's learning
> To attend a professional workshop for teachers. (own costs)
Im to evaluate n write a report on the above stated...OMG..
So much for a non-contact semester break....
ON the BRIGHTER SIDE, I officially passed my FTT on the 30th july..Although The fact that I did not study but yeah it's my 5th attempt.. :P i knw i knw..its like kenapa byk kali kan??
I initially stopped taking my driving practicals since Februay or MArch, so I cld concentrate on my FTT...Nw can call Uncle Ong...
Then on Sunday, It was My 1st ever Dive session in the pool..N i wake up the exact time where I have 2 b at Outram Secondary..Supposed to wake up early and hv an early warmup swim at my collegue's to brush up on my skills...Soo paisehh
Getting used 2 the breathing techniques isnt an easy task for me, so is the mask clearing...cos the selenge part I cannot open my eyes in the pool or the sea without goggles..hurhur
I admit it was scary at 1st wen ure depending ur life on the oxygen tank..Let me tell u equiptments mcm bersarat...keliling ur body..Dahlah 2 berat tauu...I reaaly hv 2 do something 2 strengthen my weak arms.. all those weights n the 5kg oxygen tank..
With all those chokes n gulps of chlorinated water, I decided that I needed 2 hv another pool session 2 b more confident underwater...B4 my Open Water Dive next week...
Due 2 my carelessness, i was dehydrated at the end of the day...
I've learnt that I must drink more water b4 commencing any dive, nvr panic,
guys r definitely better in the practical stuff rather than women who r better in the theoretical...
I learnt n read the dive manual n was able to answer most of the qntns asked but applying it, i hv 2 my hat off the 2 guys who nvr read the manual yet able 2 apply during the dive..
After spending ard 4 n half hrs underwater, we called it a day
The thg was i was supposed 2 carry up the 5kg tank while I take the stairs up frm the pool...walau ehh berat sehhhh...previously it was frm wore the bcd frm the pool itself...
Imagine the muscle aches I had....
Finally its 3 more days to the much awaited start of my long leave.....
Though some will be spent completing my grp assignment!!!
posted @ 9:35 PM
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This post is definitely more than a wk late..ooOps!! Sowiee
23rd july marks the day of the much awaited wedding of my cuzin...
SHE WAs gorGeous n so was her other half...
Food was superb!!
A reunion 2 my lil cousins..whom ive missed much n not been able to see each other often these days!! MIssed u guys though..
well it's been replaced by loads of laughters n photo taking...hehe
Here are some of the pics taken:
The wedding cake given to her hubby.
His look before the akad nikah.
She signing off to be a MRS.
Them with the children from Muhammadiyah.
BLissfully Man N Wife.
Them in pink.. I like this pic!!
To my dearest cuzin n ur other half,
Congratulations on the new beginning of the next phase of your relationship..
May u create lots of nieces n nephews..
Here's wishing you a blissful and joyous marriage.
Smoga berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat.
*AMIN*
posted @ 9:01 PM
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